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Friday, March 28, 2008

真是一波未平一波又起

经济风暴未平
宿舍风暴又来

新国国大下学期起
大幅度调高宿舍租金
大幅度调高宿舍条件
预测明年将会有很多新生
老鸟也因此被逐出宿舍

在外头住一房间至少得要>S$500
已是宿舍租金的双倍

衣食住行
我四缺三了

伟大的神啊
祢何时会看看我、帮帮我呢?

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

My friend's bday party (photos)





for more photos (others as well)
pls visit my facebook 

Monday, March 24, 2008

神啊
我不晓得祢存不存在
但我希望祢是存在的
我有好多东西想要问

七年前 (2001)
为什么要同时间把两个最疼爱我的婆婆和外婆夺走?
为什么要让外婆留下大笔遗产但却给阿姨们掌着?
为什么要让我的父亲失业?
为什么让他当小贩后,还要送他很多的竞争对手直到没有生意?
为什么要同时也让母亲的事业运坎坷?

六年前 (2002)
为什么要让家人都离开摈城?
为什么要让他们南迁当小贩后,又送来非典型肺炎?
为什么要让母亲找到工后,又让她没钱搭巴士上班被逼请假?
为什么要给我一个肯收留我,却又认钱不认人的亲戚?
为什么要让那时侯的他们每天熬杯面?
这些年和亲戚们借了不少钱
为什么要让我遇见戏剧的一班好友,又要让我看见他们的真面目?

五年前 (2003)
我中五毕业了
任性的我为了回钟灵念中六差点和母亲吵架了

四年前 (2004)
终于,妈妈顺从了我,我回了槟城念书
爸爸和妈妈的事业也渐渐有了起色
我以为从此天下太平了

三年前 (2005)
我发生车祸了,感谢路过吃榴莲的五位医生,小命捡回来了
毁容、骨折尚在其次
为什么要让我结交新的好友的同时,又让我失去七年的挚友?
不懂绝交的原因始终令我遗憾
这年,我毕业了,也等于是槟城的生活得画上句点
一切一切,包括我喜欢的女生,也得结束

两年前 (2006)
正式工作了,等成绩,等大学
成绩揭晓了,总算还过得去
大学则在沙巴大学和新国国大之间徘徊
我很想来国大
却招来所有亲戚的反对,除了二姨
家人也希望我来国大
钱,始终是一个问题
后来,妈妈说了一句话:“要就去读,钱我会想办法,别以后后悔说没能上大学。”
爸爸则说:“钱的问题我来担心就好,你只要读好书,别管钱的事。”
后来,妈妈和阿姨借了一笔不小的数目
我来了国大

因为种种原因,我和大马留学生断了联系
后来,通过胜认识了雪
感激雪陪我度过被遗弃的日子
你真的帮了我很多,谢谢
大马学生团真的给不到我家的感觉
后来认识了很多新国朋友,才渐渐有了家的感觉
大学就如此糊里糊涂地开始了

一年前 (2007)
不晓得我变笨了,还是大学生厉害
我成绩方面变得越来越平凡了
爸爸终于到退休年龄了,所以就领了退休金
一大半拿去还给人了
剩下的平分给我、妈妈和弟弟
他自己并没有留下
我的份已足够让我念四年书了
我知道我们从此没有债务了
我们自由了!

可是,为什么?
为什么又要让妈妈患上癌症?
为什么数年前发现时,又要让医生误诊?
为什么医生说是良性的,切除后又会变成恶性?
马上又要被开刀?
刚发现 是恶性时,我慌了,我哭了
终于懂了什么是哭、什么是担心的哭、什么是害怕的哭
每次开车来回医院时总是哭
看见医生报告写着“60% of 5 years disease free survival rate" 的字眼
我不懂要怎么反应了
妈妈总是说她准备好随时可以走了
可是我还没有啊
她怎么从没问我准备好让她离开了吗?
妈妈的老板也因此想尽办法逼她走
妈妈失业了
后来是又找到了工

今年 (2008)
但因为化疗、电疗常常得请无薪假
化疗,使妈妈的头发一根一根地脱落了
所幸的是,妈妈始终很乐观,她只哭过一次
现在她在马六甲进行电疗一个月多
家里少了收入

新年前,家里冰橱碰巧坏了
因为家里的钱所剩无几
我就用我的钱买了
本来新年也不打算返槟
忽然间,姑姑公公可能患上了血癌
希望我们可以回去,毕竟他年事已高
回去,当然也得用我这儿的钱

新年过了
红包总算有拿一些回来
预算只能刚刚好应付学期的钱
没能剩下很多了,已是极限了

碰巧三月份又特别多人生日
节目特别多,花了不少钱
手头更为拮据了
很多时候,我都两餐并作一餐吃,常常推说不饿
一来,没钱了;二来,真的不是很饿;三来,可以减肥

今天,我又去打麻将了
因为他们三缺一,却又兴致勃勃
其次,也希望我手气好,可以赢得免费晚餐,而且我也想玩

可是不懂为什么,“十赌九输”这话偏偏今天灵验
只糊了一小把,全场都在派钱
偏偏给我要“平糊”了又送来一朵花
偏偏要“七双子”了最后给人赢去 (自摸平糊和七双子可以赢超多钱的)
成了全场超级大输家

我脸黑不是因为赌品不好,还是不甘愿输
我只恨我自己为何当时没有坚持不去
现下可好,手头更紧了,我只能说,这是自找的
输了,我还是会赔钱,我不需要同情,我不需要施舍
请留点最后的尊严给我,谢谢

最后,我只想问,神啊
我究竟做错了些什么?为什么要给我这种“磨练”?
明明已经好转的状况,最后一分钟又来个突发状况?
看到别人幸福的孩子,我会不甘心,我会心里不平衡
双亲奔波劳碌大半生,
最后得到的是什么?
年老和疾病吗?
我以后并不要求成为最有钱的人
我只希望成为一个平凡的人
有个平凡的家庭、过着平凡的日子
如果以后我的孩子也要经历这种“磨练”
那就到我为止好了
妈妈以前常说要我当医生
但是不可能的了,希望我可以修读到博士
当个名副其实的 Dr. Lim

夜了、累了。。
键盘、桌子也湿了。。

神啊。。
请在梦中告诉我答案好吗?
谢谢

Saturday, March 22, 2008

人长的不是最帅不重要
最重要的是要有自信心

自恋无罪
自恋万岁

好拜五

昨天是 Good Friday
也是新国公假

大清早便与雪和裕前往观音亭参神
好久没拜拜了
那儿好多好多

膜拜仪式结束后
便动身去森林广场选购滑鼠
逛了整栋两圈后
终于选了这只


后来
要看戏也没看成
又越来越多人
最后,午餐也没位子坐
便去品尝一些民间小食

原来新加坡还是有好吃的
改次有机会便带你们去

逛着逛着
忽然间发现了这宝贝

价格还算不贵
考虑良久后就买了
时候也不早了,得回去准备另一个活动


昨晚是友人的廿一岁生日派队
这时宝贝当然也派得上用场了
现在我没有照片
改次再放

当晚好热闹
又吃又玩
很开心,却有些余兴未尽的感觉

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

please dont read

Pardon my language..

Please leave..
Don't look at me using foul language...
Apologies for that..

Stop forwarding me the fucking chain letter, u fucker..
hv ur fucking mother never teach u that dont give what u dont 1 2 other people..
u r the most brainless idiotic fucker i hv ever met in my life..
what's the purposely of scaring the shit out of ppl for ntg..
if u ur fucking self is scared of the story..
use ur god damn fucking pea brain to analyze the plot of the story..
was the instant messaging service in 1993?
isnt 15 yrs after nov 1993 nov 2008..?
how could the fuck that hv happened in march 2008?
i seriously ur fucking mother had given birth to u with any pea brain attached..
if ppl who don't forward will get killed..
u r the first fucker to be killed whether or not u forward...
Whoever fucker that send this kind of fucking chain mails plz be prepared to be fucked by me..!!
WHAT THE FUCK..!!
To hell u go..

wish list

did not post my new year's wish list..
here it is:

CAP ≥ 4.00
carbon monoxide attaches to my Pd NP successfully
new handphone
digital camera
iphone
imac
kena lottery

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Buddies..

ytd was 2 of my buddies bday..

both on same day..
both frm alor setar..

Went to Plaza Sing..
Dinner at Carl's Jr and watched 10,000 B.C.
So many people there..

Carl's Jr a bit ex but very filling..
some said the movie boring but i say okay..
Took some photo as usual..

I like blur photo recently..
朦胧美- to cover my ugliness..
haha.. enjoy..

(α)
(β)

(γ)
(δ)

(ε)
(ζ)

α - big family photo again.. (wasnt in photo-shooting-mood.. lolz..)
β - of course it's me.. 自拍.. yucks..
γ - me & bday boy
δ - me & bday gal
ε - me & JR (nge nge take 1) also 自拍
ζ - me & ChemGang Tai Low also 自拍

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Ki Siao part I

On planet earth..

There is another dimension...
Known as Planet Chemistry..

The species living in there is known as "electro chemosis"
or more commonly known as electrons...

they live in colonies..
some called it elements...

When they perform intercolony marriage, they bond..
or more commonly known as molecules and compound..

They follow different custom in marriage in different colonies..
some known as ionic, covalent, dative etc..

they speak a common language known as the spectroscopic language..
different electrons at different places possess unique identities known as angular momenta..
if they are of similar energy, thus frequencies, they couple each other...
however, they are very racist, they don't marry electrons from other symmetries..

sometimes the electrons will beh syok each other..
then they will split, one of them is d-d splitting..
therefore they are no longer staying together, or degenerate..
again, when they communicate or travel, they will tell u in spectroscopy..

In Planet Chemistry..
the only mode of transportation is known as tunneling..
or in layman term.. teleport..

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Weather, Me and Food

same old boring life...
but with rainings everyday..
feel even gloommier..

got myself MacOffice 2008..
looks nicer...
compatible with Microsoft Office 2007..
much faster and cooler compared to MacOffice 2004..

Within 24 hours..
I met several people whom i hv not met in months..
Responce i got:
(1) stare for 5 sec then recognised me
(2) don't recognise me
(3) don't even return my friendly smiling gesture
(4) said i changed a lot
(5) said i become more handsome
(6) not sure whether it's me then trying to do something funny to get my attention and see whether i can recognise them then only talk to me.. zzzz

The following photos are for ur comparison..
Apologies to ppl who got their part crop off..
For the sake of clear comparison..

2.5 yrs ago 2 yrs ago
1.5 yrs ago 1 yr ago

2 mths ago 1 mth ago
1 week ago

Last week chem gang outing again..
Botak Jones westerfood at Clementi
Food i ate and people

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

my life

My life is boring!!!!

So tired..
everyday wake up a panda, go back a zombie, sleep a pig...
everyday lecture lab lecture lab back study sleep..
keep on recycling..
so sienz with my life..
Of course, occasionally there is some excitement in dull monotonous routine..
like today..
Even my seniors said I looked like a professional chemist.. lolz..
This is my experiment setup..
"Surfactant displacement on Palladium Nanocrystals..
..by in-situ CO generation under reduced pressure"

only 4 big bottles..
left most, conc sulfuric acid dripping into formic acid to generate carbon monoxide then passed to rightmost bottle with sodium hydroxide to neutralize any formic acid vapor that might vaporize from 1st bottle and purified CO is directed into my tetraoctylammonium bromide-coated-photolyzed-palladium nanoparticles.

Unfortunately, with all this impressive setup and evrything..
My whole day effort wasted..
No CO is adsorbed onto my Pd NP..
aihz...
this is when life is sienz..