Apology

Dear Venis,

I am so sorry. I have let u down..
I have done it despite u ask me not to do so...
U said that I was good enough as it was..
Yet, I still wanted to try...
And I did it..
Didn't mean to let u down...
Sorry...


Regards,
Kenny

AHA..
Finally back on track..
school reopens..

time for more assignments and tests after a little break..
CNY ..
kept eating non-stop...
gained a lot of weight..
haha...

got my hair done..
very nice..
i m super satisfied..
i m so deeply in love with myself now..
shit..!!

第一次没有在槟城过新年。。
在柔佛，
初一初二都下雨。。
没有以往的热闹。。
但全家人都在一起。。

一起迟醒
一起看戏
一起讲话
一起吃饭

湿答答的。。
槟城这时候应该很热吧。。

槟城，你好吗？
“猪”位朋友们，你们好吗？

这里虽然没有槟城热闹。。
可是放鞭炮和烟花还是有的。。
结果搞得四周屋子的警铃响个不停。。
真是令我想起小时候的我。。
那时在外婆家玩得不亦乐乎。。
自从政府禁止放鞭炮烟花后。。
就很少看得到了。。
但近几年来，人们似乎已逐渐将禁炮令给忘了。。
哈哈。。。

不知不觉。。
祖母和外婆已去世六年了。。
依稀记得当年每当新年时总是很热闹。。
当然最重要还是吃的。。
还有拜天宫时。。
吃的总是少不了。。
否则我哪能吃的如此白白胖胖，人见人爱，车见车载？
哇哈哈。。

为何人总是酱快长大？
为何时间总是飞逝？
有时候真的很希望时间可以停留。。
停留在小时候。。
可以童言无忌，说错话也没人会放在心上。。
停留在小时候。。
可以无忧无虑，担心伤心也是短暂的，哭过睡后，太阳依然升起。。
人长越大，烦恼也越多。。
功课问题，操行问题，感情问题，人际关系问题，钱的问题。。
小时候根本不会懂，也不必懂。。
或许希望时间停留或倒流的人都是不敢面对问题的人。。
那又如何？
所谓：吊颈也要喘口气吧
所以我一直都不敢去招惹感情问题。。
有时有好感了我也会刻意回避。。
直到平复。。
其实我也会羡慕那些在爱河中沐浴的情侣们啊。。
可是要面对的问题太多了。。
有时我真的很想逃避。。

告诉你们哦。。
我有个朋友还拿他娘做的黄梨酥送我。。
哈哈。。
还蛮好吃的。。
有的意外，没想到他会送我。。
在此，再次说声谢谢啦。。

现在在家很“显”。。
不知道要干嘛。。
亲戚家又拜访完了。。
其实只有一个。。
这儿又没有朋友一起出去。。
更何况也是湿漉漉的。。
出去也没瘾了，“显掉”

最近，家里经济有了转黄灯的迹象。。
恐怕我逼不得已要出来做了。。
别想太多。。
是做工，教补习。。
还在考虑中。。
除非娘的计划成功。。
否则我得出来做了。。

新年一过就有几个小考。。
新年还要读书。。
呜呜呜。。。
这学期仅拿五科。。
所以一定要考好它。。
免得让某些人笑掉了门牙。。
当年我力排众议，坚持地来了。。
现在，我已不能再回头了。。
唯有继续拼下去。。

天气一直阴阴的。。
不知不觉，写了这么多。。
哈哈，不写了。。
新的一年里，
希望大家心想事成，万事如意。。

情人节

今年情人节去看了一部戏剧。。
剧名为《暗恋桃花源》。。

《暗恋桃花源》是在20年前完成的一个剧本，曾由著名创作家赖声川导过。整个故事主干就是一个剧场有两个悲喜剧同时排练，互相的干扰和碰撞是最大的舞台效果。其中“桃花源”将陶渊明的《桃花源记》进行解构，讲了一个渔夫因为妻子偷人，上激流中寻死却发现一片净土的故事；而“暗恋”讲了一位从1948年（民国37年）前往台湾的老人在临死前登报寻找在旧日上海的恋人的故事。两个故事一古一今，一悲一喜，一静一动，在舞台上互相交错，甚至同台排练，创造出精妙绝伦的舞台效果。
一开始我还以为是部爱情剧，后来才发现原来不是这么一回事。。

《观后感》
－剧院大些回更好，顶得我膝盖很不舒服。
－整体来说，这部戏剧超赞！！
－前一天不够睡，很累但很开心。
－一向自认方向感很强的我，竟然在楼梯迷路了。哇哈哈。。
－你上课了一整天，还愿意抽时间来陪我看戏剧。很感动，谢谢你。

VDay Bazaar

Another rather moody day...
especially after meeting a daughter of b**ch..

was jaga-ing valentine's day booth for space today...
Got myself a cake (chocolate tiramisu)..

a badge & a stalk of hand-made rose..

Rose reminds me of "The Little Prince(Le Petit Prince)"

which in turns reminds me me of you all..
All my best friends...

How are you all doing out there..?
CNY is approaching..
But i cant go back to Penang...

A productive day...

the day before..
finished my Chemical processes assignment..

today..
went to c debate competition between UM, NUS & NTU...
Really nice debate..
NUS won..
Yay..

then went to Bugis..
so many ppl..
squeeze here squeeze there..
then go china town..
also squeeze here squeeze there..
then go Vivocity..
here rush rush there rush rush..
clothes cheap..
but no money liao..
sad...

oh ya..
got ppl got galfren liao..
congrates ya..
u know who u r...!!

Chemistry? Applied Chemistry? Chemical Engineering?

Was doing my Applied chem homework..
Finally done..!
Never realize it's already 2:30am..
Wow..

Was drawing 2 flow diagram..
Basically it's about chemical processes..
How is it like in a chemical plant..
How you get your product formed after you feed in something..

Actually..
I find that I am very interested in Flow diagram..
But chemical processes is not so chemistry already..
too industrial and mechanical already..
no more theoretical stuff..

Should I go for Applied chem or just proceed with chemistry?
Or...
Even..
I should have stayed in M'sia and study Chem engin?
Had I made a right choice to come NUS and to study Chemistry?
Can anyone tell me?
nobody knows........

my flow diagram after 3 hours...

end

finally..
it's over..
relief..

25% flew away...
more to come..
add oil...!!
Gambatte..!!

going for mid term test

25% mid term test..
not at all well prepared...

breathe in...
breathe out..
deep breath..
not working..

the heart beats faster..
nauseous...
dizzy..
scared...

nvm..
i got auspicious omen from the magical carp..
should be alright..
bliv in myself...

Had Hair Day..

today got experiment..
Broke 2 apparatus..
feeling depressed, high, nauseous..
think i m going to have mental breakdown anytime..

i m depressed....
so depressed...

saw 鲤跃龙门。。。
shud become lucky soon...

ten symptoms of a guy in love...

恋爱中的男人 ：
a guy in love :

是小鹿乱撞的。。
like little deer banging in the heart…

是胡思乱想的。。
will luan luan think when ppl no reply sms one…

是语无伦次的。。
talking to ppl also dunno talk what one…

是患得患失的。。
suddenly got & suddenly dun hv kind of feeling…

是神经兮兮的。。
like ki siao one…

是精神崩溃的。。
like got mental breakdown one…

是寝食难安的。。
sleep & eat also no peace…

是无心向学的。。
no heart to study one…

是牵肠挂肚的。。
like stomach & intestine hanging in the air…

是朝思暮想的。。
day also think, night also think eh..

Apparently this guy is not me...
I m not so lucky..
not even a gal wants me..

This is dedicated to a fren of mine..
Describing him...

微笑的鱼

yeah...
finally got my ceiling replaced..
a brand new one...
syok...
but somehow..
standing fan seemed to be cooler than ceiling fan..
wahaha...
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Today's test...
aihz...
flunk 1st question...
20 marks gone...
y muz NUS exam question carries so many marks 1...
i really dun understand...
dunno how to do 1 means 1/5 of total marks gone..
really stupid...
this sem's results seems to grow dimmer...
sad...
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it's really tough to be human being...
will my life be more simply if i were a pet or insect?
or is it better if half of me were flushed down the toilet 22 years ago?
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Having low self-esteem...

Do u know what SEX is?

SEX is...

Tada..

Official Opening of a New Blog...
Msn space doesn't allow me to embed things..
so..
i have to abandon it...!!

Wahaha..
welcome to "the world of ice" [koori no sekai]