Update

Got people complained i MIA too long, bo update blog
i m here to update

I m still as b4
I lose some weight
I m not studying for exam yet
I still play games
I rejected the same girl 3 times
I m still single
I eat at home everyday

*Update patch v1.0.0 completed, life resumed as of 1700 hours 19-11-2008

情为何物？

最近认识了几个小朋友，双九年华，男，饥渴爱情

我在怀疑是他们脑袋有问题吗？
还是我不正常？

我想他们是寂寞，孤单吗？ 我不懂
为何那么渴望爱情？
单身有问题吗？

爱情的一开始是陪伴 － 阿桑

这是一个我没办法了解的东西
为什么一定要有女／男朋友？

他们说：“你一定是受过重伤的男孩！”
我说：“我没有”

或许是身上背负的包袱太多了
或许是自我保护的意识太强了
或许是对我自己的信心太差了
或许是以上皆是
或许不是不想，只是不敢
渐渐地，它也就没有必要了

算命师，你只剩两个月的时间证明你灵不灵了
不灵的话，等着拆招牌吧！哇哈哈。。

当然，我并不憎恨爱情
我依然会祝天下有情人终成眷属
只要你不要在我的面前搂搂抱抱、舌吻等
否则我必定会诅咒你，因为你影响市容

情为何物？


　　问世间，情为何物，
　　直教生死相许？

　　问世间，情为何物，直教生死相许？天南地北双飞客，老翅几回寒暑？
　　欢乐趣，离别苦，就中更有痴儿女。君应有语，渺万里层云，千日暮雪，双影向谁去？

Reminiscence

Saw a friend posting about his last day in school..
SPM student

it makes me miss my secondary school friends again..
and my secondary school life also..
last but not least, Penang..

爱吾钟灵

Untuk Negeri Kita

Selamat Tuhan kurniakan
Selamat Pulau Pinang
Negeriku yang mulia
Ku taat dan setia
Aman dan bahagia

Majulah jayalah
Negeriku yang ku cinta
Bersatu dan bersama
Untuk negeri kita

Relationship

Two new words i learnt today

The one who fucks - Fucker

The one who is fucked - Fuckee

It's actually the same as employer/employee, tutor/tutee..

So...

The moral of the story is..

Don't scold other people fucker, it implies that they are capable of fucking u..

If u want to scold, call them fuckee, it means that they are fucked..

lol..

List

Things to be done:

UROPS progress report 40 pages

UROPS abstract 4 pages

UROPS presentation 15 min

Organic reactions and mechanisms test

Organic synthesis n spectroscopy test

Lab test

Lab Viva (oral test)

Lab reports

Project research (40% of the module)

Remote sensing lab report

All to be done in 10 DAYS

Happy working Kenny..!!

good luck

无题

人老了

感慨总是特别多？

人倦了

感慨总是特别多？

好久好久没写华文了

文字总是令人感伤？

天下无不散之筵席

人与人总会渐行渐远？

因为步伐不一致？

目标不一样？

忽然想起好友们

你们还好？

想起年少疯狂的日子

以后还有机会？

会不会有一天

见面时没话讲了？

远方的我

祝福你们

Life

blog for the sake of blogging

My Life

Gratz to JR & SY for securing a room in NUS after all

Lab reports sux

1 mol of thanks to

JinRo 

Regards,

Kenny

thx for ur help, ur kindness shall be repaid

All the best to u in ur lab work and others

P/S: 1 mol = 6.022 x 10^23

scribbling..~

haha..

i m back..

it's so deserted here..

anyone visited?

disappeared for 3 months

anyone misses me?

well, been working for 1 month, then started labbing

now schooling..

Main achievements during holidays :-

I am 22 yrs old

My maple character lvl 123 - shadower

nothing else

kinda "bo life" hor?

haha..

anywayz, thx for the bday presents

15 cool mac apps

I know most of u don't use mac, y not give it a try
U will love it, Mac, ftw.
If by any chance, u use a mac, check these out!
Apps are ranked according to usefulness

Dock Fun

(rating : *****)
Have a lot of things in your dock? customize with this

Growl

(rating :*****)
your Mac's manager, will inform u whatever happens to ur Mac. e.g. download complete etc

QuickSilver

(rating : *****)
not merely an app launcher, must-have

NetNewsWire

(rating : *****)
RSS reader. Nice app.

Skitch

(rating : *****)
Cool app, microsoft paint equivalent but better

Stuffit Expander

(rating : ****)
Mac version of Winzip

Sticky Window

(rating : ****)
creates tabs on ur desktop

autominimize when apps not in use

Transmission

(rating : ****)
Bittorrent Client

MenuCalendarClock iCal

(rating : ****)
mini calendar on menu bar which syncs with iCal

iWork'08
(rating : ****)
Upgraded version iWork'06

Keynotes (ppt) especially awesome

mac office 2008
(rating : ***)

Upgraded version of Mac Office 2004 but crashed easily
Mac Office to read files, iWork better for assignment

ByteController

(rating : ***)
iTunes controller, allows u to set hotkeys

Caffeine

(rating : ***)
Prevents ur com from going into monitor sleep mode, esp good for watching movie

iPodRip

(rating : ***)
If u hv iPod, u know u cant get ur songs out, unless with this

iRed Lite

(rating : ***)
Expands the function of ur apple remote control to other apps

update patch 8.5.14

Haha

Edit my blog layout a bit

notice the difference?

I made the width broader

and some minor changes to the sidebar

HTML is not tough but tricky

fortunately I don't have to do programming :p

For best viewing experience

Plz use safari browser from Mac

alternatively, firefox should work fine as well

Well, how's everyone's holiday?

Hope you're enjoying it

I am pretty slack these days

Eat, Sleep, Movie, most of the time surfing the net

Anyway, will start lab-bing soon

meaning very busy holiday

will incorporate fruity diet into daily routine

if possible, lolz

Hopefully problems at home can be solved soon

then no migraine no depression

Previously i told my parents that I do not want to get married

seems like now they are getting a bit over worried

yesterday my mum saw a hawker's dotter quite pretty

and she insisted me to go buy things from that hawker

and NOT only ONCE

zzzzz

last time they warn me not to find gf

now they scare i dont 1 2 find gf

what u all 1 la

hard to be their son :p

well, i hv a lot of consideration

no hurry

End of season 4

Again

The time has come

Four semesters have passed

In a glimpse

Holiday

Not feeling any happy

Friends left for home

Local friends went for holiday

I am going home

Emptiness 

Soul sucked out of body

Shall resume my research project in a week's time

Say hi again to my dearest palladium

So boring today

Watched movie since morning till midnight

because i am still in hostel

Well

Hope next semester will be a better semester

!!..ULTIMATE SIENNESS..!!

!!..ULTIMATE SIENNESS..!!

super duper sienz..
how i wish all my papers can finish in a day
save all the trouble
waiting for the next paper is so sienz
like waiting to die
dont feel like studying
dont study scare later dunno summore
Grr..

mentally tortured
~BORING~

HELL

I hate the stupid weather

Hot like hell

I hate when i sick b4 exam

sick like hell

What the hell is going on?!

偷出关

在家闭关了一星期
每天生活如下
睡醒、康熙、游戏、读书、看戏、读书、睡觉
有另一番的沉闷的滋味
哇哈哈

昨天终于去新国一躺
看到了很多东西
有帅哥、美女和老姨
也因此而被人说是双性恋
哇哈哈

见到帅哥才发觉
自己与帅的境界还有点距离
很少会遇到另我觉得相形失色的人
哇哈哈

帅哥走后又遇到美女
能美到令我心动的女生还不多
当然，帅哥美女是拿来欣赏不是拥有的
看过，爽完就算了
哇哈哈

原来墙角对老姨是很重要的
当时快铁爆满
一个年迂七旬的老妇上车
没位子站，更没位子坐
于是好心的我就把墙角的位子让给她
她很感谢
而且下车时又不断地谢谢和拜拜

所以我喜欢住外面就是酱
总是可以看到很多东西
哇哈哈

拜三就考试了
祝福我吧
祝福大家

十赌九输

身上流着赌血的我

发生了上述事件后

买了他的电话号码

还有学号图个发财

今天，得到的启示

电脑不见还有人送回来

－是你的就是你的，不是你的求也求不来

－没有横财运，怎样买都不会中

小鸟降落在头上

－飞在天空的小鸟也有降落的一天

－做人要脚踏实地，别发横财梦！

好事一件

当你在上厕所

忽然发现一个手提电脑时

你会怎么做呢？

我把它收了下来

打开它，寻找主人的资料

然后还给他

电视里，人家会请吃

和帅哥美女邂逅

都是骗人的

回去吃饭时

忽然一只小鸟降落在我的头上

究竟有没有什么暗示呢？

 －－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

女子乙：我很生气耶，我的 Tutee hor, 有Oral也没有跟我说，还我白跑一趟

女子甲：哇哈哈。。（爆笑）Oral.. 哈哈哈。。 Oral..

女子丙：有什么酱好笑？

女子甲：Oral.. 哈哈哈。。Oral.. (即“咬”的意思）

冰犀： Zzzz.... ^%*@)!%/?!##?!!

某天

冰犀 ：为何你妹妹要甩掉他？

女子甲 ：因为她爱玩，又有新欢了

冰犀 ：为何你不像你妹妹一样？

女子甲 ：因为没有人来玩我

冰犀 ：Zzzz... &^%(@^#%#&!!?

分界线

站在分界线上的人

很需要平衡

没有

心里不平衡

槟城 － 柔佛 （身份）

槟城的柔佛人；柔佛的槟城人

大马 － 新国 （思想）

大马的新国人；新国的大马人

贫穷 － 富有 

穷的有钱人；有钱的穷人

迷失 • 困惑 • 逃避

The Best Host for International Students

东南亚某所国际著名大学

号称 “The Best Host for International Students”

由于某种不可告人的原因

将所有International Students 逐出宿舍门外

恭喜几位好友相继寻得下学期的住宿

我呢？

我搬回家

没法子，省钱，在外面住太贵了

Excited State

I am so excited until I dissociated...

lolz.. this is my nick of the day..

I survived the week..

this is the most hectic week i had..

test in the morning, tutorial at noon, presentation after that and straight away go the another test...

a lot of time was spent all those..

mostly on presentation..

in other words, no time for test revision..

to be honest, i wasn't really a good student in chung ling (my sec sch)..

but i was able to pull myself together merely due to these:

九、钟灵中学的学生是乐观的
他时常含有笑容，能敏捷的，愉快的，尽他分内的职务，事务愈困难，心中愈快乐。

十、钟灵中学的学生是进取的
他不自满，不多言，向着他高尚的目的去努力，挫折愈多，努力愈甚。

last two of the "Ten commandments of CLHS" of ChungLing High Sch

although i fail to achieve most of it, these two were the most encouraging..

Juz hv to believe that I can do it because I WAS & I AM CHUNG LING boy...

I even wore Chung Ling T-shirt for all my tests & presentation..

people who know me should also know that i dont like to wear society tee to go out..

Well, it does become like my "mental support (精神寄托)"..

I m proud to be chungling boy..!

The other good news is that my mum had returned from treatment..

and financial problem at home has also been solved..

I am normal again.. wahaha..

Well, still hv to save up some money to survive the holiday when i do my UROPS..

Both the test were easy.. and presentation was satisfactory...

at least that is what I think..

even thought there are some mistakes here & there..

Anywayz, I am in ultra good mood now..

I feel like jumping in the air..

wahaha..

wiki : Chung Ling High School

爱吾钟灵

hectic week

due dates this week

They due, I doomed...

Statistical Thermodynamics Tutorial - Tuesday

Inorganic Chemistry lab report - Tuesday

Spectroscopy II tutorial - Thursday

Spectroscopy II test - Friday morning

UROPS presentation - Friday afternoon

Statistical Thermodynamics test - Friday evening

Quantum Chemistry assignment I - Friday

Quantum Chemistry assignment II - Friday

Inorganic Chemistry test - Monday

2 Spectroscopy I lab reports - Tuesday

9 hours of effort and 11 pages full of calculations..

in the end i get nothing..

what i wanted to do was simple..

evaluate 3 parameter solve 1 equation in part 1 to get the equilibrium bond length for hydrogen

part 2 is to evaluate the minimum energy content of hydrogen..

J = 1/π ∫∫∫ (λ^2 - μ^2) Ψ1* (1/r + 1/R) Ψ1 dλ dµ dφ

K =1/π ∫∫∫ (λ^2 - μ^2) Ψ1* (1/r + 1/R) Ψ2 dλ dµ dφ

S = 1/π ∫ Ψ1*Ψ2 dτ

E+ = (J+K)/(1+S)   bonding orbital

E- = (J-K)/(1-S)    antibonding orbital

then derive the morse potential curve and use newton raphson's method to calculate only...

so simple..

But I spent 11 hours on calculate J only..

And i cant even get the answer..

Piangz..

I give up..

This is quantum chemistry..

great...

Statistical thermodynamics is coming..

even much more EXCITING..

Ki Siao part II

Often, when we mention wave-particle duality, we give credit to De Broglie...

For all he knows...

The one who discovered it was a buddhist...

色即是空，空即是色

色为有形有质，空则无形无质

色＝particle, 空＝wave

buddhists had discovered it centuries ago..

aihz.. science...

Application of Quantum theory in daily life

1. Quantization        { E = nhv }

- Your knowledge is quantized. ={ Brain = n(knowledge) }=

   It's either you know one thing, two things or none... never one and three quarter..

2. Uncertainty Principle   { (∆p)(∆x)≈ ½ħ }

- The more you know, the more you don't understand and vice versa

   The more you are exposed to something, the more you realize how little that is contained in your tiny little brain. If you understand something more, then you will find that you don't know a lot of things.. ={ (knowledge)(understanding) ≈ ½ħ }=

FYI :  ħ = 1.055 x 10^(-34)

So as you can see, you really know very little things

哎

哎

真是一波未平一波又起

经济风暴未平

宿舍风暴又来

新国国大下学期起

大幅度调高宿舍租金

大幅度调高宿舍条件

预测明年将会有很多新生

老鸟也因此被逐出宿舍

在外头住一房间至少得要>S$500

已是宿舍租金的双倍

衣食住行

我四缺三了

伟大的神啊

祢何时会看看我、帮帮我呢？

My friend's bday party (photos)

for more photos (others as well)

pls visit my facebook 

神啊
我不晓得祢存不存在
但我希望祢是存在的
我有好多东西想要问

七年前 （2001）
为什么要同时间把两个最疼爱我的婆婆和外婆夺走？
为什么要让外婆留下大笔遗产但却给阿姨们掌着？
为什么要让我的父亲失业？
为什么让他当小贩后，还要送他很多的竞争对手直到没有生意？
为什么要同时也让母亲的事业运坎坷？

六年前 （2002）
为什么要让家人都离开摈城？
为什么要让他们南迁当小贩后，又送来非典型肺炎？
为什么要让母亲找到工后，又让她没钱搭巴士上班被逼请假？
为什么要给我一个肯收留我，却又认钱不认人的亲戚？
为什么要让那时侯的他们每天熬杯面？
这些年和亲戚们借了不少钱
为什么要让我遇见戏剧的一班好友，又要让我看见他们的真面目？

五年前 （2003）
我中五毕业了
任性的我为了回钟灵念中六差点和母亲吵架了

四年前 （2004）
终于，妈妈顺从了我，我回了槟城念书
爸爸和妈妈的事业也渐渐有了起色
我以为从此天下太平了

三年前 （2005）
我发生车祸了，感谢路过吃榴莲的五位医生，小命捡回来了
毁容、骨折尚在其次
为什么要让我结交新的好友的同时，又让我失去七年的挚友？
不懂绝交的原因始终令我遗憾
这年，我毕业了，也等于是槟城的生活得画上句点
一切一切，包括我喜欢的女生，也得结束

两年前 （2006）
正式工作了，等成绩，等大学
成绩揭晓了，总算还过得去
大学则在沙巴大学和新国国大之间徘徊
我很想来国大
却招来所有亲戚的反对，除了二姨
家人也希望我来国大
钱，始终是一个问题
后来，妈妈说了一句话：“要就去读，钱我会想办法，别以后后悔说没能上大学。”
爸爸则说：“钱的问题我来担心就好，你只要读好书，别管钱的事。”
后来，妈妈和阿姨借了一笔不小的数目
我来了国大

因为种种原因，我和大马留学生断了联系
后来，通过胜认识了雪
感激雪陪我度过被遗弃的日子
你真的帮了我很多，谢谢
大马学生团真的给不到我家的感觉
后来认识了很多新国朋友，才渐渐有了家的感觉
大学就如此糊里糊涂地开始了

一年前 （2007）
不晓得我变笨了，还是大学生厉害
我成绩方面变得越来越平凡了
爸爸终于到退休年龄了，所以就领了退休金
一大半拿去还给人了
剩下的平分给我、妈妈和弟弟
他自己并没有留下
我的份已足够让我念四年书了
我知道我们从此没有债务了
我们自由了！

可是，为什么？
为什么又要让妈妈患上癌症？
为什么数年前发现时，又要让医生误诊？
为什么医生说是良性的，切除后又会变成恶性？
马上又要被开刀？
刚发现 是恶性时，我慌了，我哭了
终于懂了什么是哭、什么是担心的哭、什么是害怕的哭
每次开车来回医院时总是哭
看见医生报告写着“60% of 5 years disease free survival rate" 的字眼
我不懂要怎么反应了
妈妈总是说她准备好随时可以走了
可是我还没有啊
她怎么从没问我准备好让她离开了吗？
妈妈的老板也因此想尽办法逼她走
妈妈失业了
后来是又找到了工

今年 （2008）
但因为化疗、电疗常常得请无薪假
化疗，使妈妈的头发一根一根地脱落了
所幸的是，妈妈始终很乐观，她只哭过一次
现在她在马六甲进行电疗一个月多
家里少了收入

新年前，家里冰橱碰巧坏了
因为家里的钱所剩无几
我就用我的钱买了
本来新年也不打算返槟
忽然间，姑姑公公可能患上了血癌
希望我们可以回去，毕竟他年事已高
回去，当然也得用我这儿的钱

新年过了
红包总算有拿一些回来
预算只能刚刚好应付学期的钱
没能剩下很多了，已是极限了

碰巧三月份又特别多人生日
节目特别多，花了不少钱
手头更为拮据了
很多时候，我都两餐并作一餐吃，常常推说不饿
一来，没钱了；二来，真的不是很饿；三来，可以减肥

今天，我又去打麻将了
因为他们三缺一，却又兴致勃勃
其次，也希望我手气好，可以赢得免费晚餐，而且我也想玩

可是不懂为什么，“十赌九输”这话偏偏今天灵验
只糊了一小把，全场都在派钱
偏偏给我要“平糊”了又送来一朵花
偏偏要“七双子”了最后给人赢去 （自摸平糊和七双子可以赢超多钱的）
成了全场超级大输家

我脸黑不是因为赌品不好，还是不甘愿输
我只恨我自己为何当时没有坚持不去
现下可好，手头更紧了，我只能说，这是自找的
输了，我还是会赔钱，我不需要同情，我不需要施舍
请留点最后的尊严给我，谢谢

最后，我只想问，神啊
我究竟做错了些什么？为什么要给我这种“磨练”？
明明已经好转的状况，最后一分钟又来个突发状况？
看到别人幸福的孩子，我会不甘心，我会心里不平衡
双亲奔波劳碌大半生，
最后得到的是什么？
年老和疾病吗？
我以后并不要求成为最有钱的人
我只希望成为一个平凡的人
有个平凡的家庭、过着平凡的日子
如果以后我的孩子也要经历这种“磨练”
那就到我为止好了
妈妈以前常说要我当医生
但是不可能的了，希望我可以修读到博士
当个名副其实的 Dr. Lim

夜了、累了。。
键盘、桌子也湿了。。

神啊。。
请在梦中告诉我答案好吗？
谢谢

人长的不是最帅不重要
最重要的是要有自信心

自恋无罪
自恋万岁

好拜五

昨天是 Good Friday
也是新国公假

大清早便与雪和裕前往观音亭参神
好久没拜拜了
那儿好多好多

膜拜仪式结束后
便动身去森林广场选购滑鼠
逛了整栋两圈后
终于选了这只


后来
要看戏也没看成
又越来越多人
最后，午餐也没位子坐
便去品尝一些民间小食

原来新加坡还是有好吃的
改次有机会便带你们去

逛着逛着
忽然间发现了这宝贝

价格还算不贵
考虑良久后就买了
时候也不早了，得回去准备另一个活动


昨晚是友人的廿一岁生日派队
这时宝贝当然也派得上用场了
现在我没有照片
改次再放

当晚好热闹
又吃又玩
很开心，却有些余兴未尽的感觉

please dont read

Pardon my language..

Please leave..

Don't look at me using foul language...

Apologies for that..

Stop forwarding me the fucking chain letter, u fucker..

hv ur fucking mother never teach u that dont give what u dont 1 2 other people..

u r the most brainless idiotic fucker i hv ever met in my life..

what's the purposely of scaring the shit out of ppl for ntg..

if u ur fucking self is scared of the story..

use ur god damn fucking pea brain to analyze the plot of the story..

was the instant messaging service in 1993?

isnt 15 yrs after nov 1993 nov 2008..?

how could the fuck that hv happened in march 2008?

i seriously ur fucking mother had given birth to u with any pea brain attached..

if ppl who don't forward will get killed..

u r the first fucker to be killed whether or not u forward...

Whoever fucker that send this kind of fucking chain mails plz be prepared to be fucked by me..!!

WHAT THE FUCK..!!

To hell u go..

wish list

did not post my new year's wish list..
here it is:

CAP ≥ 4.00
carbon monoxide attaches to my Pd NP successfully
new handphone
digital camera
iphone
imac
kena lottery

Buddies..

ytd was 2 of my buddies bday..

both on same day..

both frm alor setar..

Went to Plaza Sing..

Dinner at Carl's Jr and watched 10,000 B.C.

So many people there..

Carl's Jr a bit ex but very filling..

some said the movie boring but i say okay..

Took some photo as usual..

I like blur photo recently..

朦胧美- to cover my ugliness..

haha.. enjoy..

(α)
(β)

(γ)
(δ)

(ε)
(ζ)

α - big family photo again.. (wasnt in photo-shooting-mood.. lolz..)
β - of course it's me.. 自拍.. yucks..
γ - me & bday boy
δ - me & bday gal
ε - me & JR (nge nge take 1) also 自拍
ζ - me & ChemGang Tai Low also 自拍

Ki Siao part I

On planet earth..

There is another dimension...

Known as Planet Chemistry..

The species living in there is known as "electro chemosis"

or more commonly known as electrons...

they live in colonies..

some called it elements...

When they perform intercolony marriage, they bond..

or more commonly known as molecules and compound..

They follow different custom in marriage in different colonies..

some known as ionic, covalent, dative etc..

they speak a common language known as the spectroscopic language..

different electrons at different places possess unique identities known as angular momenta..

if they are of similar energy, thus frequencies, they couple each other...

however, they are very racist, they don't marry electrons from other symmetries..

sometimes the electrons will beh syok each other..

then they will split, one of them is d-d splitting..

therefore they are no longer staying together, or degenerate..

again, when they communicate or travel, they will tell u in spectroscopy..

In Planet Chemistry..

the only mode of transportation is known as tunneling..

or in layman term.. teleport..

Weather, Me and Food

same old boring life...
but with rainings everyday..
feel even gloommier..

got myself MacOffice 2008..
looks nicer...
compatible with Microsoft Office 2007..
much faster and cooler compared to MacOffice 2004..

Within 24 hours..
I met several people whom i hv not met in months..
Responce i got:
(1) stare for 5 sec then recognised me
(2) don't recognise me
(3) don't even return my friendly smiling gesture
(4) said i changed a lot
(5) said i become more handsome
(6) not sure whether it's me then trying to do something funny to get my attention and see whether i can recognise them then only talk to me.. zzzz

The following photos are for ur comparison..
Apologies to ppl who got their part crop off..
For the sake of clear comparison..

2.5 yrs ago 2 yrs ago
1.5 yrs ago 1 yr ago

2 mths ago 1 mth ago
1 week ago

Last week chem gang outing again..
Botak Jones westerfood at Clementi
Food i ate and people

my life

My life is boring!!!!

So tired..

everyday wake up a panda, go back a zombie, sleep a pig...

everyday lecture lab lecture lab back study sleep..

keep on recycling..

so sienz with my life..

Of course, occasionally there is some excitement in dull monotonous routine..

like today..

Even my seniors said I looked like a professional chemist.. lolz..

This is my experiment setup..

"Surfactant displacement on Palladium Nanocrystals..

..by in-situ CO generation under reduced pressure"

only 4 big bottles..

left most, conc sulfuric acid dripping into formic acid to generate carbon monoxide then passed to rightmost bottle with sodium hydroxide to neutralize any formic acid vapor that might vaporize from 1st bottle and purified CO is directed into my tetraoctylammonium bromide-coated-photolyzed-palladium nanoparticles.

Unfortunately, with all this impressive setup and evrything..

My whole day effort wasted..

No CO is adsorbed onto my Pd NP..

aihz...

this is when life is sienz..

My friends.. My family..

My ChemGang (Malaysian)
From left: JR, SS, BT, SY, me & CY


One of my best friends here: JR


Another best friend of mine: SY
(yea, i know... he looks odd in the photo.. lolz)


My other ChemGang (Singaporean)
From left: Mabel, me, Darence, JX, JY, Belinda, Lyndia, YR, NX


Another two best friends here
from left: bengx & Mabel


My family photo taken during CNY

people say i am photogenic..
what do u think? lolz..

我－康熙

最近生活都好忙。。
最近迷上了麻将。。
最近常看康熙来了。

无意间就让我看到了一片文章。。
［蔡康永谈娘娘腔］

Q: 你在乎别人说你娘娘腔吗？
A: 我和林志玲主持《两代电力公司》，还特地让大学生为我打分，看我到底娘到什么程度，满分10分，我大概得到7分。小S 的排行榜稍微不同些，她排电视圈最娘的人，我没进前三。
我: 废话，没有才见鬼。但我并不是最严重的。

Q: 你有克服过娘娘腔吗？
A: 我个性里有些军人的部分，常常会冒出来，比如我很不喜欢无病呻吟，写东西的时候不喜欢自言自语，像写宝宝的书和LA时，都告诫自己要 字少不要字多，不要罗里八嗦地讲一件事情，如果你说的是要防止娘娘腔的方法，那么我觉得写东西写得琐碎是最娘的事情。
我: 我觉得有时可能是因为太自恋、太照顾仪态，所以变成娘。有时会很讨厌自己很娘的样子，可是我就是我，你不爽啊？喜欢就来，不爽就滚。动作是有收敛了，很多了。

Q: 家里人没有提醒你，一个娘娘腔的男人在社会上很难混？
A: 我妈非常喜欢看我穿非常花的衣服。我在留学时头发留非常长，然后戴发箍去上课，同学就说好好看啊。
我: 爸爸会要我显示多些男人气概。

Q: 你有没有关锦鹏所说那种男生女相，有多少？
A: 一定有的，我觉得观众喜欢看康熙，很大程度就是因为这个，我是非常不像一般男主持人的主持，每当我看男主持调戏 来宾的时候，总是很好奇说，你的乐趣到底在哪里？我没有把女来宾当成肉，这说不定对某些人来讲，就是件很新鲜的事。
我: 男生女相，我想有吧。看过我幼时（两三岁）的照片的朋友，都说我已长得很像女生。

Q: 你身上女人的部分会随着年龄的增长而增减吗？
A: 会减少。就算是一个完全的女人，随着年龄的增长，女人的部分也在减少，她会变成母亲、持家者，母兽这一类的， 我觉得男女都一样，特性会慢慢消失掉。
我: 会而且已经减少很多了。

Q: 你有喜欢过任何一个娘娘腔的男生吗？
A: 我没有因为娘娘腔而不喜欢任何一个男生，我根本不懂同志里面崇拜阳刚是怎么一回事。
我: 好难回答的一个问题。我不是同志，但我并不排斥同志。娘娘腔，不要令我觉得反胃的、不要对我有意思的我都可以接受。还有，娘娘腔不等于同志。

stressed... busy...

CNY

Happy Chinese New Year evryone..

Well, I m back to school..

Flashback..

The previous friday i had barbeque @ my prof's (boss) place..

Slacked thru' the weekend as CNY drew nearer..

Ponned tuesday's lecture and went out with frenz..

wednesday BBQ at aunt's house..

Thurs 5am drove to Penang..

~5pm reached..

visiting & visiting on fri..

Went out with ws, kt & mt..

Met rw & other ex-schoolmates..

watched CJ7 on sat..

Cant make it to visit rw, hf & yx..

Left Penang at 5am..

reached jb at 1pm..

back to sg at 10pm..

there goes my holiday..

back to my daily routine..

what a day..~

When boss is not around (in Lab)

What the seniors are doing...

  

Mahjong!!

Haha..

Piangz..

Even threaten me not to tell boss or they sabo me..

wahaha..

After mahjong session we went shopping for today's BBQ..

Then I went watching "Cloverfield" with JR n SY..

Nice movie..

Although whole movie was as if taken by a handheld camera..

A bit dizzy at first..

But quite nice nevertheless...

Suddenly halfway watching my friend called me..

Saying my another friend is flying to switzerland yesterday night..

So sudden..

So we rushed to airport..

Singapore's new airport (new terminal actually)

is super duper damn nice...!!

Don't even look like an airport at all..

Didn't take many photos though...

Came back at around 3am..

Pon-ing my lecture..

lolz..

.....Chui-ed.....

名 花 有 主

有几个知己是好的。。

尤其是在你心情低落时。。

更尤其在你远赴异乡时。。

当然，这并不意味着旧的已被替代。。

没有人可以替代你们的。。！！

当知道某人已有某人时。。

是有点失望、有点遗憾。。

但，也不是全然地吃惊。。

好的，很少是不属于别人的。。

谢谢“三剑客”的其余两位的支持。。

（应该为咱们的门派取个名字）

我们决定做一些疯狂的事。。

疯狂的事是我们的家常便饭啦。。

明天。。

我们会以游客身份游狮城。。

会以“formal”装出席。。

然后一起看戏。。

我们会拍很多的照片。。

我们会打扮得很漂亮。。

我们会玩得很疯狂的。。

谷底的心情已在云端。。

能在茫茫人海中认识你们。。

是缘分，也很感激。。

new project?

aihz...

i hv tried methods that i know..

and yet can't get my product..

Talked to prof..

mayb will switch other project..

not confirm yet..

The gold nanoparticle is simply to hard to maintain..

doing anything to it will damage it..

回首，回顾。。

终于回来咯。。

又是好累的一天。。

研究员的工作其实还蛮好玩的。。

以后我会走这行吗？

归途中不断地在想。。

虽然短短的十分钟。。

我却想了好多东西。。

从假期到现在。。

我觉得我好像学了很多东西。。

我忽然好像明白了Mabel常说的“有所期待”。。

当然，我不像她，她很“花心”的。。（她应该没来这里的 :p)

我自问不是一个很长情的人。。

但我若放了感情却很不容易收回。。

更莫说短时间内“跳槽”。。

可是最近好像对某人有了“有所期待”的感觉。。

就好像当初的那“有所期待”。。

不知不觉，那已是三年前了。。 哈哈。。

可是还是有人想知道当初的她是谁。。

可我偏不告诉你。。

我不是“饥渴”。。

只是我想好好地把握机会。。

不想让那稍纵即逝的好感消失得无影无踪。。

基于本身性格的关系，我好像已经错过太多太多了。。

去年就知道这人的存在了。。

有点吸引力，当然，也没去认识。。

后来又遇到几次。。

也没说话。。

直到上星期归途中遇见。。。。。。。。。（希望会有下文吧）

至于现在我身边的朋友们嘛。。

你们尽管猜。。

包你们想破脑都不会知道某人是谁。。

其实会忽然想这些是因为听到这首歌。。

真爱－183 club  >>>>>>>>>

我不喜欢那些歌手。。

也不是很喜欢这歌。。

除了那句“。。也都曾经遗憾，错过了爱，就难以重来”

1st lab day..

Today's first lab session was horrible..!!

basically we don't need to go anything..

All the Mass specs and NMR spectra are printed out for us..

All the peaks are interpreted for us..

Just reproduce what the TA said..

Great..

Great for insulting our intelligence..

and to learn something by doing nothing..

My experiment failed again..

gonna do it in organic solvent for Fischer reaction 2mr..

Hope it works this time..

Cos my gold kept crashing out in aqueous medium..

I shud do something to keep myself awake during 4-5pm..

dunno y i alwaz feel very drowsy during that time slot in lecture evrytime..

But i m very awake after 5pm amazingly..

By the way, I m still at lab now at this hour... great...

P/S: 

that funny TA mentioned above is a PRC (chinese frm china). He kept pronouncing "procedure" as "prositute". And evryone heard it as "prostitute".. All people giggled all the way thru' started from me..  lolz... terrible..

P/S 2: 

Shud i mention too technical stuff here.. Juz ignore.. Anywayz... very few people visit so nvm.. moreover, blog is for myself not others..

a poison-ed day...

Today..

I inhaled a lot of chemicals..

Other than my usual deodorant and refreshener...

so poisonous...

acetone..

ester (propyl trimethylacetate)

various thiols... (most: methyl phenyl thiol)

aqua regia..

air from my organic and inorganic chemicals cupboards..

no wonder chemists don't live long...

Anywayz..

good news is that..

i found out that my bottleneck is not my skills...

but rather, it's the chemicals..

So i juz change method..

2mr will be a fine day..

My "first" lab session starts 2mr..

bottleneck...

The life of being a UROPS (research) student and student is tough...

UROPS by itself is fun..
I alwaz said that to all my frenz..
It's like experiment without lab manual and senior reports..
Full of uncertainties...

U get to think for urself and design ur own reactions..
U r very clear of what u r doing in UROPS..
Unlike normal lab session whr u juz follow evrything in lab manual..
without much understanding.. at least that's what i usually do.. lolz..

U r free to use all dangerous and hazardous chemicals and instruments in the lab..
instruments like Infra-Red spectroscopy, UV-vis sepctroscopy, NMR machine etc etc..
chemicals like aqua regia, conc acids, liquid nitrogen etc etc...
These are the big no no in normal labs, even at uni level...

minor explosions are quite common in lab..
evrything is done in fume hood..
I learn how to see molecules in molecular language (signals, chemical shifts)..
Then from there we can translate it into what the molecules look like in text books..

My research project is on surface functionalization of nanoparticles...
basically it's to functionalize the surfactants attached onto the nanoparticles..
to make useful things.. or attached to a bio-molecules..
and then carry into human cell for some intracellular reactions..

but said is alwaz easier than done..
i m running out of idea as to how to functionalize my NP.. ~bottleneck
the outcome of lab results does not alwaz go in accordance with the theory..
U predict this and that, it gives u something else..

So chemical reaction looks so simple..
but it can be very hard to control, for instance, thionyl chloride (SOCl2)
No point explaining too many technical stuff here..
But juz to let u all know what i m doing now..

Life is so busy until i dont hv much time now..
evryday got morning lecture 8-10, then either 2-4pm or 4-6pm..
then rest of the time spend in lab...
at night, either think of what to do in the next day's lab or study...

The cycle repeats...

This does not mean i don't like research anymore..
I do.. but it's simply too exhausting hving to go lab n go lectures evryday..
after squeezing dry ur brain then go lecture n fill up with all new knowledge isn't fun..
I feel physically and mentally tired evry day... 8am-6pm..

To make things worse..
i do not hv the sufficient knowledge on the lab techniques and knowledge on chemistry..
picking up a lot along the way though...
so sometimes it's very discouraging...

This is only the end of week 2..
In NUS, things start to get out of hand in week 5 & 6 ONWARDS...
Hope i can survive then.. lolz..
13 more weeks until my final exam again..

回忆录

就让我来回味一下这两个月所发生的事吧。。

6/12 最后一张考卷

7-9/12 回忆缺陷

10-11/12 旧朋友来访

12/12 家

13-14/12 研究工作 （化学）

15-18/12 槟城

19/12 chem dept dinner

20-25/12 狮城＋圣诞 （好友团聚）

26/12-7/1 研究工作 （化学）

8-10/1 conduct workshop （化学）in frnt of ~70 ppl. nice experience

11-14/1 研究工作 （化学）

14/1 至今 开学咯！研究工作 （化学）忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙忙

长话短说，说完了。。

细节有空再写。。

没空就不写了。。

《无》

好久没写部落格了。。

究竟发生了什么事？

其实，发生太多事了。。

到底是啥事呢？

下次有空时再写吧。。

01-01-2008

@.... Happy New Year ....@

all the best to evryone..~